It's Been Awhile . . . Again

I haven't blogged since the fall, and during that time, I've been adjusting to my new life as a stay-at-home mom (SAHM). At first, this SAHM gig wasn't really a choice. I was hoping to find a job here in Georgia, but after my first attempts at job hunting failed, I settled in to study for the bar exam. During that time, we realized that we could manage to pay the bills with me staying at home. I went ahead and sat for the bar exam (which I feel like I failed), but I've stopped looking for jobs. I'll wait and see if I passed, then we'll decide what to do from there. Ideally, I'd like to have the kids in mother's day out a couple mornings each week so that I can do some work.

I must say that I LOVE staying at home with my kids, but it's been a big adjustment. I love spending time with them, having them on a schedule, getting cuddles throughout the day, and feeling that I can leave them to get some things accomplished evenings and weekends. I like that they're receiving discipline from me instead of a daycare provider.

On the downside, I have had to wrestle with the fact that I was very proud to be a working professional and now I'm "just" a mom. I want people to know that I'm an intelligent and ambitious person, and staying home with my kids now is a choice (even though it didn't start out as one). There's that darn pride again. I do miss certain aspects of my working life, especially the adult interaction and conversation throughout the day. My life revolves around taking care of my kids and cooking meals, so I'm struggling to find intelligent things to converse about that don't involve children or cooking.

I really have so much more to learn about managing my time at home and keeping our house in order. For some reason, I thought my house would be clean if I stayed at home, but that's a total farce. It may even be messier. :) I get so easily distracted that I'll sit at the computer to look up the weather to see how to dress the kids for the day, and I'll look up and realize two hours have passed and I forgot to check the forecast.

I'm going to try blogging again, but I expect it to be mostly "mommy" posts now. :) Enjoy!